This blog follows our family's journey to life after death. Our daughter Anna died November 25, 2007. In Jesus' name we press on.... to a new job, a new state, a new home, a new life. Come with us as we start a new chapter in our lives and as we press on to our eternal home.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Not Home Yet
This is part of a letter written by a mom to the daughter she lost 11 years ago. ( I don't know the name of the author, but the daughter's name was Samantha Faith.) It made me look at my loss in a new way...
It isn't that you have missed the life we feel you should have had, you are living the life you were meant to have. It is not you that is missing from where we are, it is us that are missing from where you are. You've achieved the dream I pray for all my children; for their lives to lead them Home. This was the way it was meant to be all along, but somehow, along the way, we made up our minds that parents need to get there first... even though Jesus clearly said "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." (Matthew 19:14) Oh how foolish I have been in not letting you go. Maybe it's not what we wanted at first, but in the end, if we had wanted what He wanted all along, we would have found peace much sooner than we did. Now, instead of my heart seeing your shoes missing at the front door, I see my shoes missing beside yours. Rather than my heart noticing the empty chair alongside mine at the table, I see the seat you've saved for me at His table. There are no photos of you missing in God's family photos -- you're where He pictured you to be all along. It's us who are missing...we're not home. It was never my place to teach you here on earth; I could never have taught you as much as you're teaching me. I no longer see us growing up without you, I see you growing up without us... waiting for our hearts to understand what you've understood all along, waiting for the day until you can teach us about where you've been for the last 11 years.